Sometimes perimenopause really kicks my butt and I ‘don’t feel like me’ for days at a stretch. Lately, I’ve been trying out something new… I work on something that I know makes me feel good… for me that’s math and drawing (usually zentangle because the very essence of the practice is there are no mistakes – all lines are good).
These things tend to not make me feel overwhelmed, which is a common feeling for me these days. I’ve been trying to really make an effort to give myself time to do the things that make me happy (spark joy, even 😉 ). When I was a kid, I always did my math homework first, because I just loved it. Oddly, I didn’t go to college to do anything with math, it was somehow overlooked by everyone (including myself) that this was something I enjoyed. A billion years later I’m going through old college math books, that I luckily kept. With all the other courses I took in college, math took a backseat and I am not as far along as I could be (or would like to be). So now that I’m an old middle-aged woman, I can return to these books and learn at my own pace, with no standing deadlines to rush me.
It’s freeing and oddly brings me joy. Especially when I feel that I understand a concept, and then do the odds* in the exercises at the end of a section I get most of them right… little victories. (*the odd answers are in the back of the book)
It feels good, and makes me feel good about myself. 🙂
Until next time…