Reboot…

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Accountability.

This post is not about art, not really.  If you are here for the art, feel free to skip this post.

I have found that the blogs I tend to go to most often are the ones written by people who are ‘real’.  That is, they post about their successes and their failures and sometimes they get a little personal.

Let’s be honest.  I haven’t been feeling 100% for quite some time.  And I’ve decided to make some real changes.  I’ve been making a few preliminary changes in the last few months, but I’m ready to really go for it right now.

I’ve been inspired by two bloggers in particular… Wil Wheaton (from Star Trek, The Next Generation, and Stand by Me fame… a gamer, a nerd, and a really inspiring writer ), and Jenny Lawson, the Bloggess (who has written two very funny autobiographical books about depression and being weird, she is also a very inspiring writer).

In recent months Wil Wheaton has written about rebooting his life… making 7 changes and then posting monthly check-ins with his progress.  He’s looking much better, feeling much better, and is an inspiration.  So that’s what this post is about… I’m going to make some changes, and then report back monthly… accountability.

I’ve been apprehensive about making my life and changes public.  For one thing, it always seems like the universe is out to get me, whenever I say my intentions out loud I seem to rebel and go the other direction.  Secondly, I tend to get bored around week 3, never really getting past the ’28 days to make a habit’ thingy.  Also, I think I tend to try to change too many things at once, thereby making it impossible to succeed.  Attainable goals, that’s what I need.

Seven goals seems like too many for me.  I think I’ll start with three.

  1. Look and feel better by my 45th birthday.
  2. Drink more water.
  3. Exercise 6 days a week (alternating yoga and walk/jogs).

The first goal is a bit less of a quantifiable goal.  In about 5 months, I’ll be 45.  That’s 21 weeks from now.  If I can loose 3 lbs every two weeks then, in theory, I can loose about 30 lbs.  But the number on the scale isn’t an accurate measurement of how I’ll feel at that weight.  Mostly, I want to get better sleep, feel comfortable in my clothes, and stop feeling like crap.  And since I don’t know the numbers for those things, I’m using a chart that says that I need to loose 30 lbs to be at the maximum weight for my height and frame size.  Maybe I need to loose more than that, perhaps less.

To achieve this, I think that sticking to a sleep schedule, adding leafy greens daily, cutting back on cookies and other sweets, and generally eating smaller meals will greatly improve my health and well being.  Hmmm… I guess I do have 7 goals…

  1. Look and feel better by my 45th birthday.
    • Get better sleep
    • Eat leafy greens daily
    • Cut back on sweets
    • Eat smaller meals
  2. Drink more water.
  3. Exercise 6 days a week (alternating yoga and walk/jogs).

My hope is to feel better, lately I’ve been dealing with physical issues, I haven’t been sleeping well — I’ve had esophagus burn (acid reflux) for nearly a week, have been dealing with perimenopausal symptoms for months (mostly insanely hot cheeks while trying to sleep [which is not the same as hot flashes]) which makes my sleep really lousy and then I’m kind of a jerk  (and have to apologize for my behavior) because I feel like crap the next day.  I’ve also been having quite a few migraines lately, and my cramps have been worse than in my whole history of ‘being a woman now’.  Yeah, not fun.  The symptoms, like forgetfulness and dizziness, went away once I started tracking my vitamins more closely (using my fitness pal app) and realized I needed to add some supplements to my diet.   I’m a firm believer in food will fuel my body, so I try my best to remedy my ailments with food, rather than reach for some medication, exceptions being migraines and cramps.  I’ve tried all kinds of food to help relieve migraines and a half dose of Excedrin is the only thing that seems to work.  I didn’t use to need medication for cramps and oddly Excedrin doesn’t help with those, so I’ve recently been trying Advil, it doesn’t get rid of the pain completely, but it lessens it enough that I can cope.

Also I still have knee and hip issues from past injuries and I think the extra weight is not helping.

All this has left me sluggish and it’s difficult to be creative (which is why I’ve been blogging less), much less be logical (I miss playing with math).

I feel like this is TMI, but I sort of feel like it is cathartic and an explanation of my erratic blog posting, and lack of photographic posts.  I just wasn’t feeling like getting out of the house, so photography was just not something I was doing.  I could tangle though, and it has been helping me with my mood swings.

Wow this is kind of long and very personal.  Rather than end on such a depressing note, some affirmations…

  1. Yesterday I walk/jogged 3 miles.  It felt good! 😀  And I wasn’t too sore or tired the rest of the day.
  2. Last night I got to sleep around 9pm.  Woohoo!
  3. This morning I woke at 5am and did 1 hour of yoga (my favorite DVD).  Really stretched out any soreness from yesterday’s jog. 😀
  4. My body is resilient, and I can do this. 😀

Until next time…
~nic

2 thoughts on “Reboot…

  1. You decided to change. Congratulations! That’s huge! You have taken the first steps: deciding on your goals and telling us about them. Now it is important to replace your old habits. That will not be easy, but it is doable. I speak from experience. I am still working on it, but a year ago I would be watching television by now (6 p.m.).
    It might help if you have an accountability partner to support you. Maybe somebody who is going through the same process.

    • My changes have encouraged my husband to make some changes too… we will be each other’s accountabilibuddies 🙂 Thanks for the encouraging comment, and good luck on your endeavors as well. 😀

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